In The Memory Of….
(poetic thoughts)
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My heart jumps up out my body
with its tiny legs ,
runs away from me to find a wall to slide down and sulk …
Leaving me stunned .. not shocked but
Aloof
Still
Eyes open and stuck
Vision blurred
Sobbing sounds leave me as well
With no permission
(Speaking about grief for my GMA not meeting my daughter)
Bruce Willis' wife was speaking on his dementia ..and how she is affected by the change that surrounds the holidays and the grief that comes with it ..
Cheerful to a sorrow cry in a quick shift
Holiday traditions transitions just like the souls of our loved ones
It been almost 5 years since my Gma’s been gone
and still,
I have to express how I’m affected by her loss ..
My love for her allows for my insecurities and pride to digress when my inner judge tells me I'm ridiculous for still being hurt ..
the pain .. it’s so hard to grapple with
No sugar can coat my big heart
It can’t be clogged or block the enormous sensations that come when thinking of grandma Roms
Christmas - thanksgiving.. and any other Kafir holidays
Is not the same
Without my committed prayer line warrior .
lol
damn I miss her so much ❤️🩹
Long Live Romilla Dickson 🕊️
(Picture of 2025 Christmas)
